My blog, MsBuenaVida.com, had been my main stream of creativity and a great source of joy for me. A few years ago I went though a divorce. Devastating doesn't describe it— much worse. I had four school-age kids. I moved to a new city. I didn't know how to be alone. I didn't know how to live in my new identity. I put band-aids on my emotions, cut off old relationships and have been basically surviving. Also, trying my best to help my kids through their personal pain. I lost almost everything; my faith, my friendships, my home, my garden, my creativity, my roles in life. These have been cussin' times and I've even cried at a bar or two.
I'm 36 years old now and have never felt so fragile or lonely. I've endured a lot of pain over the years, but this is different. The feelings I'm feeling now, I was supposed to feel a few of years ago. I was supposed to mourn the loss, walk in the pain and heal. I was supposed to learn to be on my own for the first time, to be confident in the Leila that I am and to GROW. That was too difficult, so I found what was familiar in the form of another unhealthy relationship and pretended life was peaches. Flash forward– I'm on my own now. It's been six months. Life hasn't stopped, but I feel that I am starting from the very bottom. I hit an all-time low and something had to change. A lot of things had to change. I needed my sea legs back.
This post was supposed to be an introduction to my new blog..it's sounding more like a "cry me a river" diary entry. Maybe you can relate to my story? Recently, I've been revisiting my old blog. It's filled with memories. The thing has sat there for three years. It's a mess with broken links and dated iPhone photos. I need a fresh start.
I've always loved salads & fresh dressings. I love to create simple meals at home and I love to share. That's why I love blogging. Years ago I blogged a sweet balsamic vinaigrette recipe and called it "I Love You Most" Balsamic Vinaigrette. Since then I developed a few more dressings and I'm inspired to make more. All of my dressings have romantic names. Names like; "Mr. Right" Ranch Dressing, "You're My Honey" Mustard, "Like a Virgin" Zesty Green Dressing, "Summer Heartthrob" Basil Vinaigrette." This is how "Lettuce Make Love" was born!
I'm using LettuceMakeLove.com as platform to not only to share recipes and motivate myself as an entrepreneur, but also so that you can be a personal part of my journey as a single mom who is exploding with dreams and on the verge of something great.
I'm moving forward, I'm excited. Please subscribe. I promise to not be depressing ever again or maybe I will. Who knows?!
Shit that was long.